Presuppositions

We always assume.

We thought the world is always as it is, and that's where disappointment often shows it's fullest sense. We often seek fantasies to replace the reality, and we failed miserably. We want this and that, if things doesn't go our way, we say that our lives are meaningless. It's just like another wisp of smoke disappearing in thin air.

Little did we know that the total subjectivity of our thoughts and feelings inside us doesn't change the objectivity outside of us in the world, not at all.

Histories are histories, you can't change it.

But the very fact that histories has changed us could stand true also, when we say that we are defined and prepared by the past, it's when the objectivity of the past has become subjective inside of us.

Life is just so perfectly imperfect. We cannot assume it's perfect. Time will come when we will question ourselves again our reason to live.

In spite of that, who knows it all? Are we to say that our lives are destined by us? We will never know what will happen in the future. But no matter how much our we think internally, we can't change the external which is destined from beginning to the end.

Food for thought.

Loving the world?

Before we were born again, we were dead in our trespasses but alive in this world. But when were born again, we were made alive in Christ and dead to this world.

I was constantly bombarded with lots of stuffs here, and it often it seemed that I have no place to hide. In places like here where people worshiped their own success and achievements, it's easy to be enticed away from God, because all of us somehow has tendencies to follow our own way without God.

Faith is always being challenged, it can be tiring sometimes.

I realized that being a Christian is actually being 'weird' to the world, that I'm not from the world but I'm in the world. But still, it's time to grow up again.

To God alone be all the glory.

My mom dreamt the day before Mothers' Day, about her fetching me back from school, I was wearing school uniform with short green pants - junior high. One thing I know, she missed me, and I miss her too. The call was one of the most wonderful thing I've ever done after all these years during Mothers' Day, as if time suddenly just stopped, and I realized how fast the years has passed, her little boy has grown up.

And here I am, away from home. Challenges are everywhere, and though times and trials can be foreseen. But nothing beats the warmth from family - one of the greatest blessings that God can give to our lives.

Happy (belated) Mothers' Day. =)

I haven't been writing for quite a while already, not sure if my English is still powderful enough..

It's 9.15am in the morning, most people are still sleeping, holding these chances tightly because these days are just rare. Everyday's life in school is just typical, you go to lectures in mornings and the rest of the day is yours, and I found that I only have 1 compulsory session per week, which makes 2 hours per week in uni. Guess that's uni life, no one's there to push you except yourself.

It's just sad when someone's in need of help and I just couldn't be there for them, seeing them wailing and crying out for help deep inside them. And the only thing I can do for them is through prayers, guess that's the most powerful thing that can be done for now.

Breaking the barriers of the past - I have yet to contemplate the full meaning of this statement, neither am I letting go of my past completely. Part of it still clings to me, and I just couldn't let it go, such a terrible hypocrite I am..

Besides, the overdose of ginseng doesn't help at all, the side effects will take quite a while..

In the meantime, the sun still shines brightly, the Earth rotates as it should be and gravity still works, praise God for that, at least I'm still alive and there's a reason for me to live and press on towards what lies ahead of me.

=]

2011

I didn't even know someone was still stalking my blog, eh Wilks?

Just in case you didn't know, I moved to tumblr.com cuz it's easier to write there. It's idiot proof, that's why I like it.

It came to my senses again, what's the use of writing in a blog? To vent out feelings? Does that mean no one's there to listen to you? Kesian la...

Even if there really is no one to listen to me, I know God does. At least I won't feel that bad when I'm all alone sitting in a room even right now.

Life's beautiful. Live long and prosper. =]

The gift of life

19 years ago, this is the day that God gave me life, the life that is so precious, yet so fragile. And as I grew up within these years, whenever my birthday came I would wonder what’s gonna happen to me, is there a surprise for me? A cake? A present? Or even ang paos?

But this year is a very different one, a lot of stuffs came into my mind. And of course, as a normal guy I would expect some birthday wishes and surprises from my friends. And it happened, I received presents, ice-cream(to replace cake) and angpao from friends and other people. But is this what makes a birthday that significant?

I heard news today, a friend of mine lost a family member this morning, really shocking news indeed. This is the day that I was given life on Earth, and the day when another life was taken away from his sojourn here on Earth. It’s true, life is fragile. We’ll never know when we will be taken away, but one thing for sure, that everything is under God’s control. It may sound really mysterious and we may not fully comprehend what it means, but that’s the beauty of it, I guess.

That could also be faith, believing something that we can’t see or perceive in the present. And trusting our lives to God, completely. It was no coincidence that I was born here in KK, being made a Chinese, having such a family and attending the schools here. God doesn’t make accidents, He creates destinies. Each and every day I thanked God for giving me another day to live, a day that I can live my life to the max, loving people and just being who I am.

Live today as if it were my last – only now that I can contemplate the real meaning of it. So yea, another amazing day for me. God, you’re awesome XD

Life is a gift of God, treasure it. Live life of no regrets.

Pursuing something that has already been done?

Simple thoughts, yet powerful enough to change our lives.

Romans 6:4

For we died and were buried with Christ by baptism. And just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glorious power of the Father, now we also may live new lives.

Romans 6 :11

So you also should consider yourselves to be dead to the power of sin and alive to God through Christ Jesus.

Why focus on the problems that we always had when it has already been solved? All the struggles, pain and failures, they are solved when Christ died for us on the cross. Instead of focusing on the problems, we should be focusing on the promise made by our daddy God.

I've been having this thoughts running on my mind for quite a few times already. And it's good also to just share it.

Peace out.

P/S: Oh btw, Happy Malaysia Day! XD